I rarely have the chance to be alone. Its unfamiliar for me to sit here in my vacant house, where the peace and tranquility allows my own thoughts to be heard. Ive been thinking about my confidence. Though i have confidence in a sense that i do not fear what others think of me, i still continue to fear what i think of myself. Its difficult for me to accept myself at times. Most of the time i truly do feel happy and joyous, but i do not always feel this way. Sometimes life may not be so super duper. And it is at these instances when i start to doubt myself. It becomes difficult to express thoughts and emotions. Happiness could be worn as a facade, but that would only last so long until the wearer becomes worn.
Here i am, by myself on the eve of a new year. Even though i kind of feel like a loser right now, id like to view it as a well needed hang out with myself to clear my conscience. I want to bring new resolutions into the new year, but i first need to leave behind insecurities as a thing of the old year.